When It's Good...It's Great!

There he is! Yep, that's him. That's my husband. And I think he's the finest man I've ever seen! Ours was a crazy beginning, and now nearly 6 years into the game - we are still together and have 2 amazing children to boot! It hasn't all been easy. Like many others, marriage has been a bumpy, unpaved road, but I believe all good marriages have those in them. Marriage is a ridiculous amout of work in my opinion, especially when you have children. You really have to carve out time for eachother and that's not always easy to do. Some days life just has too many things for you to do and not enough time in which to do them, much less time for another human being. Still, we do what we can, and continue to try to do better.

You see, when it's good,...it's SO good. It's GREAT even! The trouble is that when it's not good,...it feels awful! I hate fighting, arguing, not communicating. Don't we all? In a split second we go from being in love to being mortal enemies! I can hear the bell *Ding! Ding!*, and then the announcer: "ARE YOU READY TO RUMBLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLE?" That's how it feels. It's like an all out battle and I couldn't figure out why for the longest time.

I realize that no one can hurt me like he can. And no one can make me feel like he does. So I try my very best to imprint these "good times" into my mental Rolodex and remember the sweet, funny, loving man that he is, because when a marital squall hits us, it's near impossible for me to see that side of him. I want to be able to see the man that does the dishes without asking after I cooked dinner, or tidies up our dresser and lights candles before bed, or pulls me close to him in the middle of the night, or holds our crying child mid-tantrum and just looks at her and smiles with a calmness that I couldn't muster at that moment if my life depended on it. That's the man I fell in love with. That's the man that makes my heart stop. That's the man that lets me know that marriage is a wonderful thing. He's the man that makes me smile, and that's good enough for me.

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